Mr. Henslowe: Mr. Fennyman, allow me to explain about the theatre business. The natural condition is one of insurmountable obstacles on the road to imminent disaster.
Mr. Fennyman: So what do we do?
Mr. Henslowe: Nothing. Strangely enough, it all turns out well.
Mr. Fennyman: How?
Mr. Henslowe: I don’t know. It’s a mystery.
Shakespeare in Love
I had the opportunity to see the stage adaptation of Shakespeare in Love at the Chicago Shakespeare theater on Sunday night. The film’s message of overcoming impenetrable writers block resonated with me during finals week as I struggled to produce. As I mentioned in “First Contact” stressors have been piled onto the whole process of organizing this internship. They all came to a head during exams.
Not a lot happened between my conversation with Frequent Flyer in February until Spring Break in April. 3 weeks before exams. But even after my meeting in Chicago that week no logistics had been finalized (housing, travel, scope of work). The contacts in South Africa had yet to make any substantive contribution to the process but they had a lot on their plate and I was a la carte so that is understandable. However, I did feel better having met with people at Y-USA. After my week in Chicago I returned to 2 more weeks of class before exam week.
I have never felt such an enormous amount of stress, like the stress I felt during exam week. I was faced with an amount of work that seemed “insurmountable” and if I failed to complete it, all my plans would go out the window with it. I should mention as well that at this point I had been anticipating a June 1 departure to South Africa. This was only 3 weeks after exams.
So on top of the possibility of me not graduating, I was concerned I would not have the logistics of my trip planned. And my star crossed love affair with the rest of the world would never be realized. Additionally, for most of my last semester, or my last year for that matter, at LSU I had not imagined leaving Baton Rouge after graduation. I had anticipated that my relationship would keep me there during the interim period between graduating and departing for SA. But the reality turned out to be I had to coordinate a move with all my stuff from Baton Rouge during graduation weekend as well.
Well, I did graduate. But after exams, moving, and 4 years of University I was burnt out. I had accompanied my mother and my stuff back to South Carolina. And after unpacking I wanted to do less than nothing. I was exhausted. So I did nothing.
All of a sudden, things started happening. I decided to sell my car earlier than I had anticipated realizing I would need the revenue to purchase my SA ticket. The offer from CarMax exceeded my expectation. It gave me enough extra to take a trip to Rochester to meet my dad’s partner Mr. Rochester. It was a great relaxing and rejuvenating week. It was my farewell tour. Absolutely nothing had changed in terms of my internship but all of a sudden I felt like things were going to work out. I believed they would and reveled in the unknown of it all.